June 2009 (4 years)

If I gathered all my tears, and poured them on your ashes.
Would God realize how important you are.
Would he send you back to me.

I would keep it a secret and never tell anyone.

This is my painting of Blake,
He loved white billabong tshirts.
The background symbolises to me, the song from "War of the worlds' "My life will be forever autumn, now you're not here".
Haven't been able to do anything on this one for ages, still need to fix his hair, and have just undercoated the shirt. Too hard to paint this one at the moment.

September 2009:
I still haven't been able to touch the painting.

June 2007: Since my last update to this page I have done a little bit more work on his face.I spent hours on just the dimple in his chin. Put another coat on the shirt.
Still heaps more work, his hair is looking better.
This painting really, really looks like him now.
This is a very precious painting.

"Tears of an Angel"
As of september, 2006, the painting is a little bit more along that in the image here, and the photo here is pretty bad. I am working on this one at the moment, getting it ready for an art show in Brisbane, we'll see if they hang it. It maybe too "in your face" it's hard to get hung if you do fantasy art anyway.

My friend Steve (Hi Steve) once said to me that I paint myself in my paintings. I have always argued with him. but......this time maybe.
This is my angel crying with me.

June 2007: Finally finished My Angel of grief.
for now. I did want to put some white doves with her. Jay (My eldest son) claimed this painting.
He grieves for his brother.

This has been the most requested image for a tattoo.
If you wish this painting as a tattoo, you don't have to write and ask me.
It would be nice if you send me a photo though!

"Forever in my heart"
I listen to a song called precious child, over and over and over and over again.
The song is about the loss of a child really sad.
It has the line, :even though we are apart, you will live forever in my heart." Even though the song is very sad is also gave me great comfort.

June: 2007
Finished: I was in such a state when I started this that I didn't spend very much time on the drawing. So I had to fix her up with my brush.
Fixed her face, changed the wings put many, many translucent glazes on. The vortex behind her are the souls going to wherever.

This is called "Thought".
No wings yet. You can see my chalk marks. Cannot live without blackboard chalk.

Back to painting a faerie. Hmm!
She looks like she has no emotion was so ever. A break in the weather.

June: 2007
Painting Finished: Changed the name of the painting to 'contemplation'. The finished painting looks so much better in real life. The eyes just have this intense look as if they are looking right through you.

June 2007:
This painting as yet is unnamed.
There was a situation with the father and my boys ashes.
I wasn't able to pick up his ashes until this April which was 18 months after he died.
It was very hard to cope with not having his ashes. (This became such an over whelming concern) I had to find a way to deal with that, maybe find some peace.
So I painted an imaginary resting place. It is unfinished as yet, and it didn't work. Nothing worked until I picked up his ashes.

I haven't worked out what to write on the headstone on the painting. I did want to put white roses around the stone. Then have the thorns digging in and blood dripping from it.

"Dragons Live Forever"
This is painting is based on the line from Puff the magic dragon.

"The Orb Faery"

Unless you read it on this page, you probably would never guess this is a painting about grief.

This is my bargaining painting.
I wished for a time machine. I wondered if I wished hard enough and long enough I may be able to change the past.

Quantum physics seems to show that time may exisit simultaneously. So I still wish....

Blake starting training with his dad and brother
when he was 2 years old. He did his first Tae Kwon Do Grading at 4 years and when he was 4 he won a trophy in his first tournament. He was very happy. He won lots more trophies over the years. These are the last trophies he won.

Blake was an amazing soul, I loved him unconditionally.
He was loved and he loved.
He spent a great deal of time in trees.
Really high in the trees. He stopped climbing the trees when he was around 16 years.